Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery

I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo the very first time in an extended while, I don't feel alone.

Element of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I would be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a means to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to generally share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside. Don't want it troubling the mind, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of whatever I'd said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I'd in coming to the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere using its residents'reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.

There are other items that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.